Drowning In My Misery

Drowning in my misery

I sit here alone
Pondering about my life
And all the while I start
To realize the truth
About myself and you.


I loved you so much
I thought I'd never stop
But when I was rejected
I began to replay my life
Wanting to know where
I had messed up;
Where I misled you.

While replaying my life
I started to drift away
From my family and my friends
I started to drown
in my own misery.

I wanted you so badly
I still do at times
I needed you so much
But you brought my life
Back into perspective.

I pick up the scattered
Pieces of my life and home
And I try my hardest to rebuild
But it's futile; I can't think straight

My mind is so muddled
My misery is clouding my mind
Chasing away all logical thoughts
I wish my misery would go away
I wish my thoughts of you
Would go away and let me rest.

I close my eyes and search
Deep inside of myself
Trying to find that one thing
That will release me from you
But the more I search
The deeper my misery gets
And I start drowning yet again.

I want you to know
From the depths of my soul
That I've loved you from
The moment I laid eyes
Upon your celestial beauty
And I will love you until
Both of us are buried; free from
The restrictions of this world.